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comeatmibro) wrote2012-09-11 08:48 am
comeatmibro) wrote2012-09-11 08:48 am
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seventeenth fault; video
[ The feed opens in the capable (if somewhat irresponsible) hands (claws?) of a cheerful-looking Axew. He bares his tusks for the camera in a grin, then turns it around to face the water off the beach of Cinnabar.
Miyuki wades thigh-deep in it a few yards away, stooped over and feeling around on the bottom with both hands. She glances at the 'Gear after a second and grins, sheepish. ]
Dropped my new badge.
[ Turning her eyes to the sky, she says: ] Been here a year today. I'm, like... eleven now.
[ She straightens, holding something shiny between her fingers. The sharp-sighted might recognize it as a bottle cap. With a frown, she tucks it into the pocket of her shorts and keeps searching. ]
I've seen a lot of dudes come and go, too. Friends and stuff, and also jerks. [ The insult doesn't have much bite to it. ] My brother.
People just up and leave, y'know? No warning or anything. I hate it. I'm... tired of it. How are you supposed to have friends or, like, even talk to people? As soon as you start — aha! [ She stops, raising her hands from the water again. This time, she's holding the Volcano Badge.
She dips it in the water once before she wades toward the shore. The camera tracks her progress with much shaking. Flopping on the sand just out of reach of the tide, she drags her bag to her and rummages inside for her badge case. ]
What was I saying? ... Oh.
[ Nestling the Volcano Badge in with the other thirteen — every badge except Viridian and Pewter (of all things) — she continues: ] A girl's just gotta depend on herself, I guess. Anyone else could just disappear or whatever.
[ She sounds a little sad and a lot resigned, though she's trying for nonchalant. The badges catch the sun as she tilts the case back and forth, studying them. ]
It gets kinda boring traveling by yourself, though.
[ Slowly, the camera's viewpoint begins to change. It rises higher, a scant inch at a time, and then becomes inexplicably wobbly. The sound of feet sloshing through water can be heard in the background, and the camera begins gradually moving further away from Miyuki. ]
Maybe after I get these two badges, I'll chill for a while. Work or something, maybe get, like, a house.
[ The camera teeters violently, then careens sideways, earning a squawking 'Xew!' from the cameramon, who — miraculously — catches the 'Gear before it hits the water. ]
Hey! Stupid! Gimme that!
[ The haphazard view of the water suddenly spins, revealing sky, then sand and surf and Miyuki's bare feet splashing into the shallows just before the feed cuts. ]
Miyuki wades thigh-deep in it a few yards away, stooped over and feeling around on the bottom with both hands. She glances at the 'Gear after a second and grins, sheepish. ]
Dropped my new badge.
[ Turning her eyes to the sky, she says: ] Been here a year today. I'm, like... eleven now.
[ She straightens, holding something shiny between her fingers. The sharp-sighted might recognize it as a bottle cap. With a frown, she tucks it into the pocket of her shorts and keeps searching. ]
I've seen a lot of dudes come and go, too. Friends and stuff, and also jerks. [ The insult doesn't have much bite to it. ] My brother.
People just up and leave, y'know? No warning or anything. I hate it. I'm... tired of it. How are you supposed to have friends or, like, even talk to people? As soon as you start — aha! [ She stops, raising her hands from the water again. This time, she's holding the Volcano Badge.
She dips it in the water once before she wades toward the shore. The camera tracks her progress with much shaking. Flopping on the sand just out of reach of the tide, she drags her bag to her and rummages inside for her badge case. ]
What was I saying? ... Oh.
[ Nestling the Volcano Badge in with the other thirteen — every badge except Viridian and Pewter (of all things) — she continues: ] A girl's just gotta depend on herself, I guess. Anyone else could just disappear or whatever.
[ She sounds a little sad and a lot resigned, though she's trying for nonchalant. The badges catch the sun as she tilts the case back and forth, studying them. ]
It gets kinda boring traveling by yourself, though.
[ Slowly, the camera's viewpoint begins to change. It rises higher, a scant inch at a time, and then becomes inexplicably wobbly. The sound of feet sloshing through water can be heard in the background, and the camera begins gradually moving further away from Miyuki. ]
Maybe after I get these two badges, I'll chill for a while. Work or something, maybe get, like, a house.
[ The camera teeters violently, then careens sideways, earning a squawking 'Xew!' from the cameramon, who — miraculously — catches the 'Gear before it hits the water. ]
Hey! Stupid! Gimme that!
[ The haphazard view of the water suddenly spins, revealing sky, then sand and surf and Miyuki's bare feet splashing into the shallows just before the feed cuts. ]
2/2 audio | it's even worse here
The hardest part in all friendships is that you never know how they turn out to be. You might think "This is the person I want to be friends with the rest of my life" and the next day they've gone away. This is true even at home. There's no guarantee that we'll always be together or even connected. It hurts, but even this is better than to live completely alone without knowing anyone.
[He pauses slightly before continuing.]
I mean, it's not like your brother had predicted he'd leave Shishigaku and come to our school. This is only a speculation, given on how close they were in doubles, but he and Tachibana both must have felt like they would be teammates forever, but then something happened and changed that. The biggest difference is that they're still in the same world, but it doesn't change how much it probably hurts. Like here, they can always come back, but that also might not happen.
[Another pause before he finally adds.]
At times, you might think "I wish I had never met him so this wouldn't have happened", but that's most likely not what you'd really feel like. It's a gift, meeting people and getting to know them. You're able to change and become stronger and that goes for the other person as well. Things like this hurt, but they also make you stronger, even if it's hard to believe. [And it's something a girls her age shouldn't be learning already, but it can't be helped in a place like this.]
audio; omg shiraishi what
I guess it does happen back home, too, but not as much. You know how many of my friends have disappeared in a year? Twelve. Two of them came back and didn't remember me. The rest didn't come back at all.
[ She sounds morose, but there's no sign of tears in her voice. Maybe she's cried herself out on the subject for the moment. ]
If things like this make me stronger, isn't part of being stronger to, like... not need anyone anymore?
audio; i don't even know
[Even though he couldn't really imagine how much worse it was if you had spent a lot more time with them... or when they came back without remembering her... like he did.]
No. I think not needing anyone would make you weaker. Then you've given up, pretty much... especially on your own happiness. [Not that he's an expert on these things, but it's is view on it.]
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[ That's been the one thing she's been having trouble reconciling. Sure, she might be stronger if she doesn't need anyone, but how can she be happy and strong at the same time? ]
Does happiness make you stronger?
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... Yeah, okay. I have to try my best at being happy, then! Even when people go away.
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Good decision.
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